It's been a while since i wrote a post or note. I love writing, more than I love talking, more than I love listening. Expressing my feelings into speech is hard, but to express into notes is much easier.
Life is not easy for me all this while. I wish a lot, but I gained just a bit. Making this new blog, just to keep me alive, to share all those experiences i had, the untold stories behind what i portray.
Yes. I seemed to be a happy-go-lucky person, easily smile, easily entertained by just a silly joke, yet inside, my heart is aching or "numb" is more proper word. I don't know what I want in life actually, thus I just go by flow. Some see me as calm. no. I just give up and don't much hope anymore. I accept what comes to me and I don't really want to put much effort in what i do. Just accept the way it is.
Longing for some one, or something to burst my spirit back, for me to believe in something that I loat somewhere.
Don't worry. I'm fully believe in Allah and what He has written for me, i believe is the best. Just, sometimes, i do feel "I'm giving up".
